I've heard a couple of times that you cannot change your surroundings no matter how many times you plead and cry for it, so therefore you must take it into your own hands to satisfy the knot you've been holding inside your stomach. But being the naive little girl that I am, deep inside I believed things would change.. People would change.. (and believe me, I still have every little bit of hope in me that somewhere out there.. Miracles do happen - and that everything will fall into place as I wish it would without much required help on my own behalf).
But what happens when you've waited a lifetime for things to change but today still feels like 6 years ago? - should you sit and wait until you're free of your own restrictions whilst counting the grey hair that slowly appears in consequences of time? Or maybe it's finally time to set your foot down and do something for yourself so that when you come home.. It finally feels like.. Home.
And I know the grass is usually greener on the other side, but I can't help but feel a little envious of others who seem so downright content with their lives..
I do admit it's a little scary to think of what's waiting ahead. And changes will lead to major alterations of lifestyle, and members will surely be missed. But it doesn't hurt (much) to try. And if you fail.. Then maybe failing is just one step behind success? :) (look at me sounding all positive! - I'm usually a pretty pesimistic person).
I know this blog was meant to be kept as more of a non-personal diary of my life. But today I had the sudden feeling of relieving things off my chest. And so that's my very own 2 cents :)
But here's to 2010! New hopes and dreams and hopefully a brighter 2011 to come! ;)
